Yesterday was my first off-day of the week, and I intended to do some shopping on my own, but ended up getting only 1 dress. Then I decided that it had been a loooooooooong time since I actually enjoyed some cozy light reading so I picked up some fiction at the library and although they were all supposedly bestsellers which meant they were very possibly good reads, none of them brought me beyond the 5th page because my brain + eyes were evil and sleep kept penetrating first. Guess I've been unconsciously buried deep within this thing called Fatigue and I'm really quite tired of some stuff in life. For the record, I need some madness in my life again. I dislike taking things too seriously, I detest giving a definite answer and I'd rather things be ambiguous. That is how I am and that is why I am flawed and that is why to err is human and that is why nobody is perfect and that is why I am like that.
Today, someone prepared a lunchbox for me and he personally delivered it to my workplace. : ) Although t'was a simple humble meal, I really, truly enjoyed it so damn much because I haven't had homecooked meals for more than a month and I appreciate the time and effort that this person has taken to do this for me. It's such a sweet gesture, so thank you. c:
So, working long hours in the retail line has been pretty worthwhile because when the $pay$cheque$ comes rolling in it's very (:D), definitely feels rewarding. Plus the experience and the friends, definitely tongue-tied already, haha. And I got my performance allowance this month so it's kinda motivating.
Labels: RSH
Anyway, on Sunday I brought my cake to RSH to share with the colleagues! Not all of them were there, though, since we work different shifts.
Jet has been transferred to Parkway and is going to start work there next week :( I can't believe this is happening okay; especially when he just started working here last week. Will definitely miss his (uber lame) jokes and his amiable personality. Karen is leaving at the end of the month to take a break and Queen Lani is leaving due to better job prospects in February too. So now I'm just quite : ( &If my store manager really gets transferred to Compass point, I'm out. So am. I will so quit. He did tell me any transfer of this kind is to be expected and that he can't always be here to look after me butbutbut :( OKAY IKR I should stop behaving like a baby and grow the hell up already.
{ PS I was never made for this thing called commitment. }
What am I supposed to say? I know I'm supposed to feel something, but I don't. I don't really want to live on your charity anymore. It makes me feel worse about myself, worse about hurting someone I never wanted to hurt. I know I hurt you very badly that night. But each time I give you my answer, somehow I hurt a little too. You're persistent, but I'll make sure I'm more persistent. I don't deserve so much from you.
9-teen
So every year, the birthday celebration just keeps getting better. So far every experience is following a positive gradient; it's just I don't know when it'll reach a maximum point and then spiral downwards and mimic the shape of a sad-smiley quadratic curve. Or maybe it will decide to take after an exponential {if i remember correctly} curve and tend towards a random horizontal asymptote. See, I'm secretly math material. I know right, kill me already. BUT ANYWAYYYYYY this is my last 'teen' year. And I am upset about it. Somehow I never wanted the 23rd of January 2010 to come and my family members noticed that because for the first time in my life I didn't ask for my birthday presents 5 months before the actual day. =\

I absolutely love my classmates
and it's scary how the last few to leave were all the members from my PW group. We just have this psychic thing about us.

I love this girl because she knows I am secretly Mr Bean.

And here's to the bestie& her beau for coming, and for getting me panties that are meant for 12-year-old girls.

this is why we will never grow up or look glamourous.

this is aida trying to look taller than me

and knowing she can't because I cheated. I love the handpainted batman-themed shoes. You cute thoughtful little thing Aida!

and this is me being retarded with the top student and the girl who always gives birth while she is taking photos.

Thank you girls, I really like the earphones : )

this was taken without flash because zuoqi's eyes are allergic to flash.

TBB! A pity Charlene couldn't make it =\ Anyway I love yall for making my life awesome in 2009. When we grow up, we wanna be childish, have eberything the same as our friend.

The quirky shades is one of the best things that happened to me this year. My friends are as cool as me. I love the presents, girls. Super creative haha!

thank you so much for the pink mp3. Pink makes my world go round.

But I'm jealous that Krystal has 4 men on her top.

LMAO girl and the girl whose foot I stepped on until it bled(3 years ago). Thank you for the pink + black slippers and the cards. EVOL {hahaha}

cakes*

this toy was given to me on my 19th birthday.

I do housework on my birthday.

lovely cousins + aunty jocylin
I'm finally 19. But it feels like I just turned 9.
Thank you all, I am a very blessed girl.
One Less Lonely Girl
Work was actually awesome over the weekend. Was literally swept off my feet by the endless crowd and there were times when I had to serve 3 different customers simultaneously which made me almost tear my hair but my colleagues never failed fail to come to my rescue. Met 3 more permanent part-timers yesterday- Ken, Wei Wen and Desmond who all happen to be around my age. &albeit forever joking around and laughing at me they always offer to help the noob that is me. Which makes me feel more like a sinner day by day.
ANYWAY I GET MY WEEKEND RATE SO I FEEL SLIGHTLY BETTER ABOUT DEVOTING MY PRECIOUS SATURDAY AND SUNDAY TO WORK. AND I SAW 3 of my OGMS over the weekend- Zikai Brenda and Shinyee- who all didn't see me because I'm too short to be seen anyway. Surprise surprise. But Jeremy and Terence saw me first today though, so I don't fail that much after all although I was in quite a massively tragic state when they caught sight of me.